● ●● 加沙戰爭 | War in Gaza

2023 年10 月 7 日，赫什·戈德堡-波林 (Hersh Goldberg-Polin) 在雷姆音樂節遭遇哈馬斯襲擊，手臂被炸斷並被綁架。目擊者確認他被哈馬斯武裝分子帶走，哈馬斯恐怖分子的攝像機拍攝的影片記錄了赫什、奧爾和埃利亞被綁架的整個過程。2024 年 4 月，哈馬斯釋出了一段顯示他受傷的脅迫影片。

戈德堡-波林夫婦成為最受矚目的人質家屬。和其他家屬一樣，他們經歷了漫長而煎熬的等待。在過去的 10 個多月裡，戈德堡-波林夫婦曾會見了美國總統喬·拜登、教皇方濟各等重要人物。他們還在聯合國和民主黨全國代表大會上發表講話，竭盡全力呼籲釋放所有人質。

赫什的母親在胸前佩戴數字，是為了紀念兒子在被哈馬斯綁架後經歷的痛苦和漫長囚禁。這個數字代表著赫什被綁架的天數，他們的每一天中都飽受思念的煎熬。

在赫什被綁架的第 330 天，2024 年 8 月 31 日，以色列國防軍確認發現包括赫什在內的六名人質被近距離槍擊身亡。赫什的葬禮於 2024年 9 月 2 日在耶路撒冷舉行。同一天，以色列也爆發大規模遊行示威。

數千人參加了葬禮。在葬禮上，赫什的父親喬恩談到了兒子的兩個好朋友和同學，其中一個名叫阿納爾·沙皮拉 (Aner Shapira )，他為了拯救防爆間裡的人，向外扔了幾枚手榴彈，結果不幸身亡。另一個朋友本·祖斯曼 (Ben Zussman) 於 12 月 3 日在加沙戰鬥中喪生。

“赫什，我很抱歉，” 父親喬恩說道，“我們很抱歉。我們失敗了，你沒有失敗。你為我們助力，我們也更加努力，這樣你和所有士兵的犧牲就不會白費。我們會把剩下的人質帶回家。我們的希望還沒有破滅。我們和你在一起的生活是一種祝福，現在我們會努力讓你的遺產成為一種祝福。我愛你，” 他說。

以色列總統伊薩克·赫爾佐克也在赫什的葬禮上發表了悼詞，“親愛的赫什，今天，我懷著悲痛的心站在這裡，作為以色列國總統，向你告別，並請求你的原諒，來自你、來自卡梅爾、來自伊甸、來自阿爾莫格、來自亞歷克斯、來自奧裡，以及來自所有你所愛的人的原諒。” “我代表以色列國向你道歉，我們未能在 10 月 7 日的可怕災難中保護你，未能將你安全帶回家。我為你在 7 歲時移民到的國家、披著以色列國旗的國家未能保護你的安全而道歉。” 赫爾佐格繼續說道：“雷切爾、喬恩、親愛的李比和奧利、祖父母以及全家人——我請求你們的原諒，原諒我們沒能把赫什活著帶回家。”

達尼諾的兄弟阿哈龍說，自 10 月 7 日以來，他就再也沒有發現任何微笑的理由。 “在過去的 330 天裡，我沒有找到任何理由微笑。除了上帝，我沒有找到任何可以依靠的東西或可以信任的人。你是這個家的支柱，是你朋友的支柱，也是我自己的支柱，” 他說。

雷切爾·戈德堡-波林是赫什·戈德堡-波林的母親，在耶路撒冷的葬禮上發表講話，哀悼、緬懷兒子，並向他作最後的告別。

“在過去的 332 天裡，我有很多時間去想我的寶貝兒子，Hersh。

我總是想著，為什麼上帝在全世界那麼多媽媽中，選擇了讓我做Hersh的媽媽。我到底做過什麼好事，才值得得到這麼寶貴的禮物？那一定是非常了不起的事。

幾年前，Hersh和我一起看了幾個關於年輕人去世的紀錄片，他問我：“為什麼每個早逝的年輕人，別人都會說他是最幽默的、最聰明的、最棒的、最帥的？怎麼從來沒人說，‘我喜歡Max，但說實話，他其實挺笨的，他的幽默感有點問題，還有口臭？’”

實話實說，我也不覺得Hersh是完美的。但對我來說，他就是最完美的兒子。我非常感激上帝，想在這裡表達我的感恩，感謝上帝賜給了我這個寶貴的禮物……23 年來，我有幸擁有這個無價之寶，成為Hersh的媽媽。我心甘情願地接受這一切，並說一聲謝謝。只是我希望我們在一起的時間能更長一些。

Hersh，這幾個月裡，我每時每刻都在為你揪心，心痛得無法言說。這是一種我從未體驗過的痛苦。我拼命壓抑著對你的思念，因為我怕那會讓我崩潰。所以，我花了 330 天，心驚膽戰、恐懼不已。這種恐懼讓我喉嚨發緊，靈魂像是被火燒傷了一樣疼。

讓我們感到如此痛苦和困惑的一部分原因是，在這條我們家人過去 332 天走過的艱難道路上，發生了一件奇怪的事情。在這無法言喻的痛苦、恐懼、絕望和恐慌中……我們變得非常確信，你會活著回到我們身邊。但結果卻不是這樣。

現在，我不再需要為你擔心了。我知道你不再有危險了。你和美麗的阿納爾在一起；他會帶你四處看看。你可能會遇到我的祖父母，他們一定會特別喜歡你，還會和Papa Stan一起下象棋。但現在，我開始為我們擔心：爸爸、Leebie、Orly和我。沒有你，我們該如何繼續生活？

我也禱告，你的離開能成為我們所有人都陷入的這個可怕局勢的一個轉折點。想到你和Carmel、Ori、Eden、Almog和Alex在一起，我感到了一些安慰。據我瞭解，他們每個人都有各自的魅力，我想這就是你們六個人能夠在那種難以想象的情況下堅持活下來的原因。你們每個人都做了每一件事，為了在我只能稱之為地獄的地方生存下來。

我向每個家庭表達我最深切的同情，感謝我們所有人在經歷這些痛苦時，依然無法挽救他們的那種無力感。我認為我們已經盡了全力。那種希望能夠達成協議的感覺如此真實，幾乎觸手可及。但最終還是沒能實現。這六位美麗的人一起生存了下來，這六位美麗的人也一起離開了我們。現在，他們將永遠被銘記在一起。

Hersh，像所有父母一樣，爸爸和我常常談論你將來會成為什麼樣的人，當你“長大”後會是什麼樣子，你會做什麼，你會長什麼樣，你會成為什麼樣的父母。但現在，你將永遠是我們美麗的男孩。你將永遠充滿活力、善良、有耐心、好奇、幽默、無所畏懼、喜歡思考。永遠英俊。永遠年輕。永遠是我親愛的兒子。

你在短暫的生命中體驗了很多東西。這讓我感到寬慰。你建立了真正深厚的友誼，你每年夏天都去旅行，開始探索這個世界，你工作，你學習，你閱讀，你教書，你服務，你傾聽，你甚至墜入了愛河，並擁有了一段超過兩年的深厚感情。你和我們分享了那種新體驗的喜悅。你迷住了所有與你交談過的人，無論他們是老人還是年輕人。你以一種只有年輕純潔、充滿理想主義的眼光，來推動正義與和平。你從未對我大聲說話。你總是尊重我，即使你選擇了不同的道路。

當你從防爆間給我們發來簡訊時，你說你剛剛看到你的好朋友阿納爾被殺。你失去了手臂，並以為自己快要死了。你在簡訊中寫道 “對不起”，因為你知道失去你對我們來說將是多麼痛苦，所以你努力堅持活了下來……所有的時間。但現在，你已經走了。

此刻，我請求你的原諒。如果我在你的一生中曾對你不耐煩、對你不夠關心或忽略了你，我真誠地請求你的原諒。如果有我們可以做的事情來救你，但我們沒想到，我懇求你的原諒。我們已經非常努力了。如此深切而絕望地努力著。對不起。

現在，我的Hersh，我請求你的幫助。

當我們將希望轉化為悲痛，轉化為這種新的、未知的痛苦時，我懇求你，請讓你的光芒照耀在我、爸爸、Leebie和Orly身上。幫助我們重新振作起來。我知道這需要很長時間，但願上帝保佑我們有一天，一天美好的日子裡，爸爸、Leebie、Orly和我會再次聽到笑聲，而當我們回頭時，會發現那是我們的笑聲。我們會好好的。你將永遠與我們同在，成為一股愛與力量的源泉，你將成為我們的超能力。

對於每天都陪伴我們的Dalya、Matt和Richard，我對你們的感激之情永遠無法用語言表達。

我要對我們廣大的社群成員表達最誠摯、最深切的感謝。正是你們一直支撐著我們，關心我們，為我們禱告，做飯，並在我們最無助的時候扶持我們。

我非常感謝你們，並深表歉意，但我們還需要你們的幫助來度過這個充滿痛苦的新篇章。非常抱歉再提這個請求，因為我們沒能給你們任何回報，而你們已經給予瞭如此多的幫助。但我懇求你們，請不要現在離開我們。

好了，親愛的兒子，現在開始你的旅程吧，我希望它和你夢寐以求的旅行一樣美好，因為終於，我親愛的寶貝，終於，終於，終於，你自由了！

我會愛你，我會想念你，直到我生命的最後一天。然而你就在這裡，我知道你就在這裡，我只是需要教會自己以一種新的方式感受你。

Hersh，我需要你為我們做最後一件事……現在我需要你幫助我們保持堅強。我需要你幫助我們度過難關。”

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I have had a lot of time during the past 332 days to think about my sweet boy, my Hersh.

And one thing I keep thinking about is how out of all the mothers in the world, G-d chose to give Hersh to me. What must I have done in a past life to deserve such a beautiful gift? It must have been glorious.

Hersh and I watched some documentaries a couple of years ago together about young people who had died and he said, “How come everyone who dies young is always said to be, the funniest, the smartest, greatest, the handsomest? Why doesn’t anyone ever say, ‘I liked Max, but you know what? He was pretty stupid, his sense of humor was off and had bad breath?”

I am honest. And I say, it is not that Hersh was perfect. But, he was the perfect son for me. And I am so grateful to G-d, and I want to do hakarat hatov and thank G-d right now, for giving me this magnificent present of my Hersh…. For 23 years I was privileged to have this most stunning treasure, to be Hersh’s Mama. I’ll take it and say thank you. I just wish it had been for longer.

Hersh, for all of these months I have been in such torment worrying about you every millisecond of everyday. It was such a specific type of misery that I have never experienced before. I tried hard to suppress the missing you part. Because that, I was convinced, would break me. So I spent 330 terrified, scared, worrying, and frightened. It closed my throat and made my soul throb with 3rd degree burns.

Part of what is so deeply crushing and confusing for us is that a strange thing happened along this macabre path upon which our family found itself traveling for the past 332 days. Amidst the inexplicable agony, terror, anguish, desperation and fear….we became absolutely CERTAIN, that you were coming home to us ALIVE. But it was not to be.

Now I no longer have to worry about you. I know you are no longer in danger. You are with beautiful Aner; he will show you around. You will hopefully meet my grandparents, who will adore you, and start to play chess with Papa Stan. But now my worry shifts to us: Dada, Leebie, Orly and me. How do we do the rest of this life without you?

I also pray that your death will be a turning point in this horrible situation in which we are all entangled. I take such comfort knowing you were with Carmel, Ori, Eden, Almog and Alex. From what I have been told, they each were delightful in different ways, and I think that is how the 6 of you managed to stay alive in unimaginable circumstances for so very long. You each did every single thing right to survive 329 days in what I can only call Hell.

I send each of the families my deepest sympathies for what we are all going through and for the sickening feeling that we all could not save them. I think we all did every single thing we could. The hope that perhaps a deal was near, was so authentic it was crunchy. It tasted CLOSE. But it was not to be so. Those beautiful 6 survived together and those beautiful 6 died together. And now they will be remembered together forever.

Hersh, like most parents, Dada and I often would talk about who you would become, what you would be like when you ‘grew up’, what you would do, what you would look like, what kind of parent you would be. But now you will be forever our beautiful boy. You will stay energetic, kind, patient, curious, funny, irreverent, pensive. Forever handsome. Forever young. Forever my sweet boy.

You squeezed into your young life a lot of experiences. And that gives me relief and comfort. You made true and deep friendships, you traveled each summer and started to explore the world, you worked, you learned, you read, you taught, you served, you listened, you even fell in love and had a deep true relationship for more than 2 years. And you shared the excitement of that new experience with us. You charmed everyone you ever talked to, old or young. You promoted justice and peace in a way a only a young pure, wide-eyed idealist, can. You never raised your voice to me in your life. You treated me respectfully always, even when you chose a different path.

When you wrote to us from the bomb shelter you had just seen Aner get killed. You had lost your arm, and you thought you were dying. You wrote to us, “I’m sorry” because you knew how crushing it would be for us to lose you, so you fought to stay alive… all this time. But now, you are gone.

At this time I ask your forgiveness. If ever I was impatient or insensitive to you during your life, or neglectful in some way, I deeply and sincerely request your forgiveness. If there was something we could have done to save you and we didn’t think of it, I beg your forgiveness. We tried so very hard. So deeply and desperately. I’m sorry.

Now, my Hersh I ask for your help.

As we transform our hope into grief and this new unknown brand of pain, I beg of you, please do what you can to have your light shine down on me, Dada, Leebie and Orly. Help shower us with healing and resilience. Help us to rise again. I know it will take a long time, but please may G-d bless us that one day, one fine day, Dada, Leebie, Orly and I will hear laughter, and we will turn around and see… that it’s us. And that we are ok. You will always be with us as a force of love and vitality, you will become our superpower.

To Dalya, Matt, and Richard who came to be with us every single day during this Odessey of torture, there will never be enough time or words to express my gratitude to each of you.

And I want to say now the sincerest and most heartfelt thank you to the countless people in our extended community who have held us, cared for us, prayed for us, cooked for us, and carried us when we could not stand up.

I’m so thankful to you, and I apologize deeply, but we will need continued help to get through this sickening new chapter too. I am so sorry to ask, because we have given you nothing, and you have already given so profoundly and completely. But I beg of you all, please don’t leave us now.

Ok, sweet boy, go now on your journey, I hope it’s as good as the trips you dreamed about, because finally, my sweet sweet boy, finally, finally, finally, finally you are FREE!

I will love you and I will miss you every single day for the rest of my life. But you are right here. I know you are right here, I just have to teach myself to feel you in a new way.

And Hersh, I need you to do one last thing for us…. Now I need YOU to help us to stay strong. And I need YOU to help us to survive.

編譯：Haleli

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